My son marked four months on life on the 7th and I’ve been ready to take this photos of this particular outfit since early December. As you all know, Maison is my third baby and my final chance in enjoying the beautiful milestones of a new baby. I’ve tried to breastfeed all three of my babies but never passed the two week mark BUT this time around I’ve been breastfeeding FOUR months strong! I mean it’s been a HARD four months, but it’s been a blessing to have this beautiful bond with your little one. It is simply amazing and something to take pride in to watch my son grow and live because of the breast-milk my body produces for him.
I remember my son being as little as 5 days old when I had to give him his first little one and half ounce of similac….my god my heart hurt so much. I remember crying because I felt like I failed him and as if I was a bad mother. There was my one friend who I literally would text all sorts of hours and consistently ask for help or vent on how I wanted to give up. My lovely Celi, (click here to see who she is :-D) my goodness you were heaven sent! Thank you for always encouraging me and always responding when I always needed you! Even tho I had to pump to feed, I did it. I was not going to let this little bump on our journey stop me, I was and still am determined to nurse and nourish my son until he weans himself.
While I had to start pumping and feed Maison bottles, it hurt me so much but I knew it was possible. I pumped every 2/3 hours and supplemented at least 3x throughout that pumping phase. When Maison was about 2.5/3 weeks, I was ready to start nursing again….and it worked! Seriously, pumping takes a lot of work WAY MORE work than nursing. I was so happy to be back in action and have that beautiful bond with my baby boy again. From that moment on Maison was exclusively breastfed. I felt incredible to have accomplishe those weeks of exclusively breastfeeding. Again, had my same support system and I can’t say it was super easy but it takes dedication and like anything else there were up and downs.
As many of you know, I have a day job and the days were approaching where my maternity leave would end. November 11th, the day I dreaded and thought I would cry my eyes out. I was so anxious; how was I going to handle everything plus work? How was I going to keep Maison exclusively breastfed? Would he end up pushing me away? So many questions. The day came and it was totally not as bad as I thought. I’ve made it my business to pump religiously while I’m away from my son. One thing I wish I did while on leave is pump as I nurse. Pumping as you nurse helps you build up your storage but I just didn’t want to do it; boy do I regret it. Lol
Eventually in December Maison was given formula, yes formula. I was so sad. All my hard work will come to an end! How could this happen? Why?! Like every other time, I reached out and just read everything I could from kellymom.com to babycenter.com. Needless to say, I came to peace with it. After all, my two eldest were given formula and they are healthy. I knew I didn’t want to give him similac, I wanted to give him something less processed and something healthier. So I did my research and decided to give him Earth’s Best organic formula. So yes my baby is 70% breastmilk and 30% formula. I wish it was 100% but listen that’s better than no breastmilk and better than I’d ever think I could do! My two eldest didn’t get this much breastmilk…pat myself on the back.
He is four months and absolutely amazing. He has such a lovely personality, he loves to laugh, he loves to play with his little feet, loves to eat his hands and he loves the boob. 🙂
An “Eat Local” session was perfect. We eat organic wherever we can in my home and Maison isn’t excluded. He eats locally….directly from his momma….
To all my expecting mommas, if you’re looking to nurse your baby, don’t get discouraged and allow anyone to make you think or feel it is impossible. There’s always a way.
To everyone who helped and still does to this day…thank you! Special shout out to Bianca, Carolina, Cindy and all my Instagram mommas. xoxo
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